The story behind this quote
You are mine because you were my imagination.
To make a long story short, in early 2018, I was feeling so fed up with any type of romantic relationships. I felt like no matter how hard I try, it would always end up in separation. Most of all my previous breakups were ended because of my fault. I couldn’t control my emotions; overthinking, doubts, jealousy, and the worst of all, depression.
There’s also one thing that made me gave up on love: religion.
In the country which I live in, a man should be religious if he wants to marry a woman. Otherwise, he wouldn’t have a chance to marry a good woman. Unfortunately, I am one of that religious skeptical person. No matter how hard I try to believe in religious values, I will always have doubts about it. There are many things that have made me skeptical about religion, but I believe it would be better to not talk about it here.
For some reasons I mentioned above, I decided not to be in a romantic relationship at all.
During that moment, I sensed the freedom of being who I am. No one is trying to control me or expect me to be what they want me to be. However, I felt a little bit — or much — of loneliness. But I thought it’s better to feel lonely than being in a relationship which will probably try to change who I am.
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I unconsciously imagined about her
At first, I didn’t even realize that I was unconsciously imagining being in a relationship with someone who has the traits that I’ve always dreamed of. That person in my imagination had a high sense of empathy; accepted me for who I am, what I believe, and even my struggle with depression; believed that I’m the most perfect guy for her no matter how imperfect I am.
It was more like a wish than an imagination. Whatever it was, I wished over and over again for that person to come to my life.
I know that maybe it’s impossible to find someone with this high-quality of traits. But there’s nothing wrong to imagine wildly, isn’t it?
Dreams don’t turn to dust
Instead, it’s becoming a reality.
At that moment, I was running a YouTube music channel called BipolarBear. It was a quite successful channel and has had a quite large amount of audience. I had been running the channel for more than a year.
One day I was ‘on a date’ with one of my best friends. We were about to watch a movie called Show Dogs. Right before the movie started to play, I got a notification from YouTube. I opened my phone and saw someone commented this:
I’ve been subscribed to this channel since 20K. I’m so happy for you! 30K subs!!!😱😱 I always click the like button in the videos because I want to see this bear get huge (I know that you are going to get very far) Congrats 🎈🎊🎉 I love to see good things come to good people. This is one of those times. Aku cinta kamu (I really hope I wrote it correctly 😂🙈)
Aku cinta kamu means “I love you”. I had no idea how this person knew that I am an Indonesian.
For more than a year of running this channel, I had never gotten a super exhilarating comment like that.
A light in the dark
We started talking through YouTube comments since then. And on my birthday, she commented this:
Yes, it’s a special day, because the kindest and beautiful hearted person was born on this day!!🐻❤️
No matter how many birthday cake candles you’ve got lit, they’ll never light up my life like you do!
Hope your birthday is filled with all the fun you can handle!🤪🤩
Here’s to the sweetest and loveliest person I know……HAPPY BIRTHDAY 😁🎂🎁🎉🎈🎊
I know that many other YouTubers are getting countless comments like this. But for me, this comment meant more than anything because I remember that I had strong suicidal thoughts on my birthday morning.
I couldn’t help but ask for any of her contact information. She gave me her e-mail address and I contacted her two days later just to say thank you for the sweet comments that she has said and how they meant to me. Surprisingly, we started talking consistently and our conversations were going from common conversations to romantic conversations.
I figured out that she lives in Brazil. That’s sixteen thousand kilometers away from where I live.
Beyond my imagination
It felt like The Universe had heard what I had always been wishing for, and send someone whom I really want to live with through YouTube comments! Maybe Aphrodite (The Goddess of Love) has invented a new way and keeping up with today’s technology to make lovers find each other.
After several months of talking, I felt like I’ve known her for a long time. While in fact, I barely know her. I haven’t even met her at that time. Maybe this quote by Paulo Coelho can represent and answer what I felt at that time:
Really important meetings are planned by the souls long before the bodies see each other.
I tried to be vulnerable to her by telling her about my struggle with my mental health issues and she’s entirely accepting me for who I am. She’s also super caring and is always taking a good care of me whenever my depression started to kick in.
She’s the kind of partner who would never expect anything from me, but will always make me want to give her the best of me.
To sum her up, she’s the best and the kindest person I’ve ever known in my entire life, and I’m grateful for the chance I’ve got to call her mine.
The moral value of this story
You really don’t know what’s waiting in front of you. Someone or something precious is waiting for you to reach. All you have to do is to keep your hopes alive even if what you’ve wished for doesn’t seem to be happening. Keep on dreaming because miracles do exist.
Do you have any stories about your imagination that comes to reality? If so, please share with us in the comment section below. I would love to hear your stories.